Thursday, June 24, 2010

Shock Me, Wednesday

This post is quite personal and mentions pregnancy.

Dear Diary,

Over 24 hours ago I took a pregnancy test. The result was positive.

My period returned when Ethan was four weeks. Grooaaan. It happens like clockwork with every baby. As soon as they hit four weeks, the witch arrives.

Annoying, however, very helpful when trying for a baby. It makes tracking ovulation and dates sooo much easier. So, in a way I was relieved because it meant we would be ready to start trying whenever we were ready.

We had talked about trying when Ethan turned three months. I even posted about it. We were in the middle of my cycle waiting for AF to arrive. We had planned to start trying and track on that cycle. We were a little nervous about Ethan being three months, but I was sure that I wouldn't fall on the first cycle which would give us at least another month. We were happy with the decision and very excited.

My menstrual cycle also works like clockwork even after babies. 28 days past and my period wasn't here. I thought it was strange, but put it down to the fact that my body was readjusting after baby. 29 days past and it still hadn't arrived. 30 days came and I started to worry. My husband asked if there was a possibility that I was pregnant and I said "No. There's no way."

We had been using the same fool proof contraception that worked for us between all of our babies. Apart from the twins, all of the kids were planned and we hadn't had any "happy accidents".

I was feeling a little crampy yesterday, but decided to take a test (I am an OPK and HPT freak. Seriously, ask my husband. He thinks I'm crazy) anyway. As I waited for that horrible ten minutes to pass, my husband and I chatted about what we would do if it came up positive. We were both like "Oh, well it's not going to be positive, so don't even worry."

Two lines. "Holy Effing Jesus" was my husband's first reaction. I was speechless. I still am. I really want to have that same yay-we're-having-a-baby reaction like I've had with all of my other kids. Somehow, all I can think of is what other people will think.

Will we tell them it was planned? Will be tell them it was a "happy accident"? What will their reaction be? What will my kids think?

At this stage I am almost five weeks along. I will have to book in for a blood test in the next week. For now I will be sick with worry and morning sickness and hoping and praying that we will get through.

Love, Tara.


  1. Congratulations!!! I hope that the blood tests and doctors visit, etc all go well.

    Forget about what other people think. (But it's easier said than done, isn't it?!?!)

  2. Don't worry about what other people think! It's nobody's business.

    I can understand being shocked; your body surprised you by working in ways different from what you're used to. I bet you'll be used to the idea very soon. Congratulations!

  3. Its not up to others to judge you. And if they do, ignore them. Who cares what they think? It is your life to live. Congratulations. I hope everything goes well.

  4. Congratulations! What a surprise. You're an expert by now, so I think it'll be all right. Here's to a happy and healthy 9 months!

  5. Yippeee!

    And tell them you're expecting a lovely little one and nothing more...

  6. I've just stumbled upon your space via FYBF and very happy I did too. Love your sidebars and the image of all of you in the 'about me' section.
    As for your BIG news, my response was 'W.O.W.E.E!' you're both amazing. Of course everyone's going to have an opinion, [we're human afterall] but your response to their reaction will be THE most important element of the interaction.

    Here's to a weekend where you're surrounded by the people and things that you love most in the world and to more wonderful people like you who are brave enough to follow their dream fully.

    x Felicity

  7. Don't worry what anyone says, like a bunch of the gals have stated IT'S NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS! Every baby is a blessing, and at least you have a few more hands around the house to help.

    Congratulations and hope everything goes well.

  8. Congratulations. I'm so envious we are trying desperately just to get baby number 2 (well officially 3 but our firstborn is in heaven).

    You are a brave wonderful woman and don't you let anyone judge your decisions.

    What a team you'll be - There were ten in the bed and the little one said.......

  9. I agree with the other comments; who cares what other people think, congratulations! It's your family, your body, your baby. Good luck, I hope everything goes swimmingly.

  10. How exciting! Seeing lots large families makes me want to have more kids. Family and friends had a heart attack when we announced the 3rd and I've been too scared to even think about another one in case they shun me or something.


  11. Celebrate and don't worry about what other people think or say. It really is none of their business...

    Best wishes for an easy and problem free pregnancy.

  12. Congratulations! I'm so happy for you. I've been told I can't have more kids so i think you're so lucky.

    If there had been a big gap ppl assume the baby was an accident too, like they did with my youngest sister. People will assume whatever they want. Celebrate and don't worry about anyone else.

    Hope it's a smooth pregnancy for you. :)

  13. Ah...I get it now. What a wonderful gift; it adds even more sweetness to your post today. I'm happy for you. Congratulations.