Saturday, July 24, 2010


I have miscarried.

I am now meant to be ten weeks pregnant. Instead I am un-pregnant and in a great deal of physical and emotional pain. It sucks.

Exactly a week ago, I felt like something was wrong. I made myself keep quiet about it and just pretend that it was to do with the morning sickness and dull cramps I was having. That night, I just had to tell my husband. I could see that he was also worried, but trying not to be.

We made an appointment for the next day. "I'm sorry, Tara, but....." were the words that made my heart sink. I didn't know what to do. The baby's heartbeat stopped at about eight weeks. Eight weeks?! How could I not have known that? My own motherly instinct had failed me.

It has now been five days since we found out. The pain is slowly starting to go away. Luckily, we haven't told our families, so no unpleasant announcements. I told my eldest daughter and she cried as if it was her own baby.

I am so lucky that I have my beautiful family around me at this time. We will get through this together.

Nikki suggested that we name the baby. I think we will do this as a family. Once we have had some times to heal I will be back with a name. In the meantime, I appreciate all of the support. It really does help.


  1. You and your family are in my thoughts.

  2. Thinking of you and your family. I have never m/c, but I did lose my infant son hours after his birth. I know that to lose a child at any age is horrible and the worst. I do suggest the naming your child, it really helps give an identiy to your missing loved one. Our sons name is Vayden he is our very own own angel.

  3. I'm so sorry to hear the news. xo

  4. I'm so sorry. I'm praying for peace for you and your family in this hard time.